164 - Lost Chances

[tiemlord]

  I've had so many lost chances. So many times when I had a chance to make things right, and I just threw them away like they didn't matter. I was too - stubborn. Too proud to give ground. 

I used to blame them. I used to pretend it was all their fault. It weren't what I did. It was them fer not trying to fix what they did. But it ain't true. It was never true. I just wasn't willing to see that back then.

I watched all them chances slip through me fingers. I sat back and did nothing. I just watched them slip away while I pretended I was right all along. I had my own wounds to heal. I thought they were more important. I pushed away some really good people, and now it's too late to say sorry. 

But maybe he never wanted to be friends anymore. Maybe he's better off without me. Doesn't mean I don't miss him though. An' it's not like I can't go back and fix things either. I can go back through time all I want. But I never do. I don't see the point. What'd happen? Nothing. Nothing would change, and it'd all end up like it is now. Why should I hope it'd be any different?

Muse: Jeff Lynne
Fandom: Electric Light Orchestra RPF AU
Word Count: 216
Disclaimer: Complete work of fiction.